How do i get through it?

I absolutely know what you are going through right now. The day I kicked my husband out, I felt I was doing the right thing. I love my husband with all my heart, but his lack of emotion torward even our children put me over the edge and I filed for divorce because of the mental abuse he was putting the family through. My husband said the same thing yours did to you. I begged him to go to counselling with the entire family. He absolutely refused. My husband didn't put up a fight either, because it's what he wanted, and I gave it to him before he did it to me.