am I going through a weird situation?

ok, so my situation is this: i have this weird anxiety or weirdness of feeling weird in my body. My throat sometimes gets so choked up that i try to burp out my discomfort so that i will be relieved of it. I also looked up on the internet that to relieve oneself they can breathe in deeply and hold their breath for 5 to 10 seconds and exhale it out. I also have this almost full-blown attraction to a lot of girls at my school , the grocery store, the bus, on magazines, anywhere. And sometimes that gets me all worked up, hot and bothered, and anxious, I guess. I guess i am also worked up about being attracted to other girls and haven't been able to solve or resolve it in my mind, or something, i don't know.I feel like my mind is going through an awkward stage, which in turn is making me feel like, sort of awkward.so, i don't know what to do, but i keep hoping for the best and i breathe in deeply and exhale the anxiety away, so that's what i do. um, also, i feel very emotional sometimes, and so i figured if i just feel all my feelings at times, then some of the anxiety will release. sometimes i feel like its a lot of emotions, and i have to breathe in deeply for a moment. I scheduled an appointment at the Student Health and Psychology Center so I can ask them what am i going through, so, that is a step in the right direction. I also talked about this with my friend Doris, and she said that i am going through an awkward stage and that it will take some time for the stage to p. She also said that it will take some time for me to become a stronger person, mentally in that area, or something, because she believes that I am gay. I also mostly believe that i am, but, at first, i COULD NOT believe what my friend was saying! so, i am starting to believe her now! *laughs* and, um, i came out to my mom that believe that i am attracted to other girls. i tried to tell her a while back, but, this time, i had to really let her know, because my anxiety was a little more higher at that time because i guess i was in a little bit of denial, or that i was freaked out , or that the fact that it was the start of this weird stage or situation. I guess i tried to repress or hide my quirks and my tendencies because i was taught that it is the way of life to like , be attracted to, and to love a guy/man. so, i thought that oh, i will become one of those women who will marry a man, fall in love, and have beautiful children, and he would work and i woul work for our pion and our goals in life, and that we would be a happy couple- type thing.so, i have thought ahead about the nice life that i thought in my mind that i would have when i would get older. i didn't think that i would be really attracted to girls in such a way. I think that i would have to get married to a girl now, all the stuff that i have thought of would be slightly different, because i would have to either adopt children or my wife would give birth to our children-type thing. I also have had many dreams about girls and a few about grown women. when i awoke from these dreams, i would be a little freaked out, and be like, wait a minute, i like guys, that's not me? is it? so, yeah. I also have had many times were i questioned my uality in high school, and i watched a lot of and yaoi. is anime shows, and yaoi is gay men shows. these were my favorite dramas. I also found myself fascinated many times about the situations that two people of the same were attracted to each other. oh, yeah, let me tell you a little about my childhood. i had a nice one. um, i also had this intense, scary crush towards my 1st grade teacher Ms. Bell. At that time i was sort of being a little freaked out, and i don't know why, but i said to my friends "Ms. Bell is with Mr. Bell", you know, like they sleep together and all that. Never did it cross my mind that Ms. and Mr. Bell were brother and sister! *laughs* so , my 1st grade "friends" told on me to Ms. Bell, and she made me appologize to her. and i did appologize to her. To this day i still think of her as one of the iest teachers i have EVER seen. she was freaking fine as heck! i felt very weird at that time because i just felt, oh, my God, shes so beautiful! I wouldn't know what to "do with it", but i figured, she could teach me! *laughs* i have a little bit more of these stories, but i just wanted to ask, what do you think i am going through?